Ever since Jonathan mentioned how we should try to practice a specific performance, it has opened up a new challenge for how I read scenes. As I analyze the script, I see ways that I could read lines or interject something into my performance. Now, I catch myself and try to focus more on the scene's emotions. If Jonathan steps in with some direction, I want to be able to take it and run with it. Acting presents enough challenges for us; there is no need to make more for ourselves.

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This week was atypical, as many students in the class were unable to attend. However, Jonathan turned this into an advantage for those who were able to make it. Due to the smaller size of the class, we were able to have everyone run through the scene as each character. There was also extra time for feedback during and after each performance, which I feel made this class such a great learning experience. The scene we were reading fell into the thriller/horror genre and required a roller-coaster of emotions from one character. This was perfect for what I have been trying to work on and to implement Jonathan's feedback from the last class.

I am proud to reflect that I did a much better job at playing off of my scene partner. When they went in a certain direction, I followed. When Jonathan gave me something to try in the middle of the scene, I was able to adapt much faster. Now, this was not a perfect performance by any stretch of the imagination. Two hurdles are still blocking me from achieving a depth of acting: taking a ceiling off of myself and riding the emotional rollercoaster more. Whether a subconscious need to not want to embarrass myself or hold myself to an impractical standard, I still do not fully let myself live in the moment. I took more swings in this class, but Jonathan can see that there is much more that I can bring to each performance.

So, looking forward to next week, Jonathan left the class with some great concepts to mull over. Mainly, out of action comes definition. The specificity of a performance can often be what gives it such a vivid life. As we enter each scene, we need to be aware of our goal and make poignant choices. If your partner goes off script and adds in some unforeseen line, you must remember your goal in the scene and go from there. If we can remember the emotional desire, then it does not matter what new line or action a scene partner throws in; you will be able to reach your goal. It just may look different than how you imagined.

Personally, I loved the small class as it felt like we were being spoiled with more attention and practice. What this unique version of class reminded me of was how much work becoming a better actor takes. One class each week is not enough, but it's a fantastic foundation.

Other parts of our lives can take hold of the majority of our time, and I am thankful to have this class as it guarantees a time each week when I can only be present with acting. The outside world gets left at the door, and art becomes my focus.